They'll call it chance, or luck, or call it Fate

I'm not sure if you can tell from my recent entries, but since this weekend I've felt myself falling into a bit of a funk. I think I finally hit the low point of that funk mid-afternoon today, as I was revising lesson plans. I just started feeling overwhelmed with life in general. 

I left work in a depressive sort of mood, but was cheered up when I ran into a small group of students from my school. We were all on our way to the train station so we walked together and got on the train together. One of the girls in the group is in my third year class (my smallest class of eight more advanced students). She seems like the quiet geeky type, but she always shows interest in talking with me (even if she's not always sure about her English). Today we talked about manga. It turns out that we both like D.Gray-man and Kanda is our favorite character. Her friends commented that we both seem similar. It was all pretty cute. The whole thing left me feeling a lot better, at least momentarily. My favorite part about the job is when I get to have actual conversations with my students.

I'm in a kind of in-between mood at the moment. Not too bad, but not great either. I think that part of my problem right now is that I haven't hung out with any friends recently. I can only go for so long without hanging out with people before I start feeling down. I'm also missing my close friends. I'm decently close with Eri, but I haven't seen her recently and I miss my really close friends. I wish meepalicious wasn't in Osaka so that we could have awesome times in Tokyo like we used to. I want to be able to hang out with at least some of Kotobukigumi.

I'm also missing DJ terribly. In America, we were in touch all the time. We'd always text each other when we had something to say, or even if we didn't have anything in particular to say. I miss the easy closeness that we developed over the years. It was just so comfortable to be around each other and we'd talk about anything and everything. I haven't been able to talk to him much at all since arriving in Japan because he doesn't have a very stable internet connection at the moment. It'd make me so happy to be able to Skype with him, or even IM with him.

(And stellawind and melody1228, let me know if you want to Skype sometime soon? It's been a bit since we've last talked and, of course, I'm missing you, too!)

At least I have something to look forward to tomorrow. Yumi invited me to go out for dinner with her and Elise after work. I'm not really close with them, but it should still be fun. It sounds like we may be going out for Indian food, which I love. And there's also a three day weekend with some fun plans to look forward to, so I think I'll be all right. When I'm in a less than great mood I generally feel better when I can get out and do things.

I got my hair cut today. I chopped a good few inches off and now my hair is around shoulder length again. It's not too long, but still long enough to pull back. This should be easier to take care of when I arrive in Japan and the weather is all hot and sticky (because it's going to be the middle of summer).

It's hard for me to believe that June is already over. The month seemed like it went by pretty fast. I guess it's because I went away to see Leslie for a week and then when I came back all my weekends were very busy. I've got about three weeks until I leave for Japan! I've still got a lot to do, but I'm so looking forward to going. I kind of feel like I'm wasting my life away right now. I've got so much free time and nothing worthwhile to do this summer.